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expression and identity

If Anne Vitale is right and this condition should be termed Gender Expression Deprivation Anxiety Disorder then part of the answer for sufferers is to dole out the right amount of expression to soothe that anxiety. Many of the people whose blogs I read are in a situation where their level of expression or lack thereof is leaving them frustrated and conflicted. They are of course thinking about their families and respecting their rejection of a desire that no one understands and which we have imbedded in us since early childhood.

But if the desire to express femininity is rooted in insufficient androgen exposure in eutero then we shouldn't feel conflicted about dealing with this condition in a positive and healthy way. If part of the solution involves regular cross gender expression then we need to try and find an arrangement that our families can accept. This will necessarily involve having them understand that this for us is not a choice but a requirement for mental health and stability.

The WPATH standards of care mention that the course of treatment for some gender dysphoric people can stop at this junction and need not even lead even to HRT. The idea is to assuage the anxiety to allow for sustained mental health.

I was in the unfortunate position of having to deal with the turmoil of a divorce and an illness virtually at the same time but I am here to say that rebuilding and strengthening far beyond my expectations is possible. I've never felt as mentally sharp as I do now.

I can keep my identity as a male bodied person and express my gender in the way I choose but still respects my life commitments to others. That balance is difficult to attain and it requires tweaking and adjusting.

John Hopkins medical center, which no longer performs reassignment surgeries, recently completed a study that followed transgendered people some having had surgery many years ago and some not. The results showed that there was not a significant difference in the level of life satisfaction in either group.

There is an answer that fits you.

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