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less might be more

I remember once meeting a fellow patient while I waited for my gender appointment. He was in the early stages of transition and could barely strike up a conversation with me or even look me in the eye. After I went inside, Helene told me that he rarely spoke to strangers and had some communication issues.

That meeting stayed with me.

People who follow this blog know that I am on record as not being against transition. However I do propose that one get their house in order before embarking on such a journey. Gender dysphoria is a formidable opponent to be sure and it must be dealt with all of your faculties in good working order. If you have low self esteem, suffer from depression or have family problems then your transition will not repair them and potentially only make them worse. It may be tempting to think that these issues are in part due to our incorrect gender role designation.

I found that it was only when my psyche was at peace that I able to properly tackle my dysphoria. It was when I was most conflicted that my mind raced from place to place in search of a solution.

Perhaps the best approach might be to work on understanding ourselves as well as we can and to do only what is minimally required to improve our happiness. For some this may be occasional cross gender expression while for others it may include hormone treatments or androgen blockers. We are all different.

On another note, a recently discovered that a well written blog I like may henceforth be haunted by two familiar, predictable and polar opposite characters. One is from the dysphoria as fetish school while the other is from the discredited HBS crowd who adopts the clarion call "my bell has rung ergo I am a woman" but must bolster herself by discrediting the transgendered. The author of the blog I refer to appears to be well read, intelligent and hopefully up to the challenge of tackling these two.

Meanwhile, my blog will continue to very happily dispel falsehoods and use current and past research to help people with medium to strong dysphoria find alternative solutions to deal with their condition. This is particularly important for those of us who are heterosexual.

As I have posted here lately, the resources are out there for you if you need them.

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