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Sunday night N and I watched the finale of "Breaking Bad" on Netflix. We had both become hopelessly addicted to the series after seeing the first few episodes and since she and I don't live together, she had forged ahead and finished watching the entire run of episodes before me. Still, she wanted to see the conclusion with me and savour the exciting and moving finale once again. If you haven't seen this masterpiece of television, I urge you to do so.

The idea of redemption, change and loyalty are the main themes in this drama and the characters surprise us with their nuance and ambiguity. There is no black and white here and just as in real life no clear cut boundaries exist to grab on to. We see that the characters and the rules they live by are often imperfect and tinged in shades of grey.

I somewhat identified with Walter White in that my own life went through a major conversion after an illness and I was able to reinvent myself in my middle life. Thematically the subject matter is different but the idea is the same. We are all capable of dramatic change whether for the good or for the bad and the buffers and filters we espouse are often our only impediment to enact that change.

Walter White

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