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the wrapping you come in

I can't recall ever feeling this lucid before in my life. It's as if I had always been missing that one piece of the puzzle that would allow me to live a normal life; at least as normal as possible for a person with gender dysphoria.

Most people don't have to think about their gender. It is an unquestioned part of their identity but we gender dysphorics need to keep examining our situation until we can come to an acceptable equilibrium; one that allows us to live with a certain level of mental peace.

Coming to a workable resolution has allowed me to sharpen my senses and bask in the positive energy that this has brought me. In male mode I perform better at work and I am nicer to people in general. Joanna is happy when she goes out and interacts much more than she used to. She doesn't worry about how she is perceived by others and as a result is perceived to be a genetic female all the more.

Removing obstacles that prevent you from treating your dysphoria is pivotal. We are often our own worst enemies and we tell ourselves we will be rejected or scorned and yet I have found the opposite to be true. If you present as a lucid, caring and confident person, people may care far less about the wrapping you come in and focus instead on the real person inside.



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  1. I'm so glad for you Joanna, the inner balance you have achieved is a precious personal gift to yourself, look after it well. You must be constantly aware of this balance and carryout fine tuning when and where necessary. I have realised there are both genders in “me” and in the background I have a constant dialogue going on between “Book” and “Abigale”. Observing this I am on the road to finding my own inner balance. I think it will take some time, but with help and support of fellow travellers, a believable goal.
    All the best and blog on!.
    xx
    Abigale

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  2. Abigale you can count on my support!

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