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a foot in both worlds

I am living both as a man and as a woman.

It snuck up on me slowly but I finally realized that is what I was doing. I have a presence as a female in the world even if that presentation isn’t full time. All I know is that it works for me.

I do many things as Joanna on a daily basis and I am known in my immediate neighborhood with merchants whose businesses I frequent. None know that I have another existence during the day.

I am reminded of the case of David/Sonia Burgess an immigration lawyer who often worked pro bono and had a very similar type of life to mine. She was killed when pushed on the tracks of a London subway by a mentally disturbed client who was also transgender. She was a good person who tried to help people in need.

The things we need to do to manage dysphoria can seem odd to other people but they can be a lifeline for us. The trick is to find your own formula that helps manage your dysphoria and fitting it into your life instead of disrupting it entirely.


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