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being and staying happy

I think that once you have accepted yourself as you are the next challenge is keeping that self-image intact as you interact with people who think they know who you really are because all you ever let them see was a partial or even distorted portrait. This is particularly difficult with family members and of course existing partners.

For example, I am on my own and could think that no woman would accept me as I am or be concerned with what Fred or Joe from work would think of the way I live. But at this stage of my life, I am not going to change for anyone no matter what.

The only way to avoid that mindset is to focus on being ourselves above all and not be concerned with anything else. In my case, I need to remember that I married almost 21 years ago not being able to be my true self which wasn’t fair to her or to me.

Being who you were meant to be is the only way to be happy and it is that happiness which sustains you regardless of familial or relationship status.

Another benefit to this way of thinking is that it allows you to hold out for what you deserve instead of settling for anything less.


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    1. Very nice, thank you. This is the first time I heard that song; it's beautiful.

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  2. I fully intend to stay in the light. Thanks for posting this...

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