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I think we can make a conscious choice to be happy.

It is a given that life is, by its very nature, extremely complicated and if it isn’t we will find a way to make it so. The trick might be to accept that despite your best efforts you will constantly be dodging obstacles.

Probably the hardest thing to decipher in this life is how much of the instruction you are given is actually useful and beneficial to you. We are all either privy or victims to parenting that depends on a luck of the draw and we sometimes spend years undoing damage. I don’t think anyone has it easy.

Contentment comes from within and radiates outward allowing you to filter the blows you receive from life. The perspective you gain then allows for more personal growth to add to your arsenal of weaponry.

At the end of the day I have very little to complain about and I know it. I can also look at the glass half empty or half full and that is a deliberate choice I make.

For some strange reason, accepting that suffering forms part of the natural state of existence helps soften the blow.


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  1. Interesting thoughts as usual Joanna and I can rationalise things like you do. However, I think there are some whose genes and brain chemistry do not allow thinking themselves into happiness and at worst the black dog of depression can render them immune to logic and reasoning. I also have my fall back positions - there is always at least someone (and probably many) way worse off than anything I might feel and so what right do I have to be unhappy? In addition, there is no point regretting the past, seize the day and live for the future.

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  2. don't get me wrong Linda is that I fall prey to depressing little episodes on a regular basis especially when I look at the complexity of my life but I am trying to work at looking forward and as you say seize the day...

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  3. I actually wrote a comment for a recent blog entry which basically said that happiness is often an unreachable goal and that some semblance of contentment might be a more achievable goal. In the end I deleted what I wrote. (Which likely I should be for this comment as well.)

    If happiness is shooting for the stars and contentment more of a moon shot, I seem to spend an inordinate amount of time mooning about, trying to make sense of that which is incomprehensible. Fortunately, I generally avoid the depths of despair, but still I seem to go through life dragging this bag of boulders which makes contentment seem like a distant shore.
    Does this make any sense at all? Probably not.

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  4. It makes complete and total sense Kati and you are far from being alone in feeling that way

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