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the other patient

I was at my GP’s office recently after having missed my physical last year due to my being away in Toronto. One of the first things he mentioned to me was that among his only 3 out transgender patients in his 3,000-patient practice (me being one of them, the second one is set to transition at age 63 after knowing they were trans since the age of 4. His first patient to transition did so 20 years ago at a relatively young age.

My doctor is not betraying a confidence as a name was not shared and I have told him to share any information about me with this other patient. This person’s wife unfortunately passed away from cancer about 2 years ago which makes this life transition less hazardous even if a little sadder.

One of the other things my doctor mentioned is that she is very masculine in appearance and he wondered out loud with me how this was going to play out in her life. I reminded him that once you get to a certain age and one has lived with dysphoria for decades, very little is going to stop you from living your life as you must. He respected that statement and, being 61 himself, he agreed that we no longer tend to care about the whims of society past the age of 50. This is a deeply private decision which by this juncture of life is hardly made in haste.



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  1. Wise words Joanna: " I reminded him that once you get to a certain age and one has lived with dysphoria for decades, very little is going to stop you from living your life as you must." The idea of not living the rest of my days as the woman I know I am, is no longer tolerable.

    And so the careful plans of a mid to late life transitioner are being made while my body and spirit soar as I slowly, thanks to estrogen, start to resemble my authentic self.

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  2. I am very happy for you Marcia

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