advice to my younger self

The year was 1968 and there we were outside a church in central Madrid after some function. I was 6 and my sisters 5 and 4 with my brother safely nestled in my father's arms being about 1. Two more sisters would follow in '70 and '73

If I could travel back and talk to myself I would have said "Watch out kid because you are in for a bumpy but exciting trip through life"

I would have counseled myself to not take things so seriously and to not let the outside world get to you as much. Life unfortunately isn't like that and it demands that we learn the hard way which is precisely what I did and yet I wouldn't trade any of it for a do-over. The burns and the scrapes are all part of the play we are destined to act in. It's part of the game. Everything I might have dared to predict would have been wrong but at least I might have taken the ride much more philosophically.

This is what I tried to impart to my son the other day (who by the way is much the incarnation of my father). I told him to take life with a grain of salt and to have it be less about planning the mechanics and more about internal growth and peace while letting the rest take care of itself.

Anyway, that trans kid I was wouldn't have understood or be able to process my message from the future. For that was a different world with far too many obstacles to climb.

Sometimes things just happen for a reason.




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  1. Such a different world back then; one where we couldn't imagine what our future could bring if we travelled the road with faith and an open mind.

    When I read "It's part of the game", it reminds me of the book Illusions: The Adventures of a Reluctant Messiah" by Richard Bach. In it he likens life to a movie that we write and direct and star in. It can be an adventure, or a soap opera; our choice. He writes "We are game-playing, fun-loving creatures. We are the otters of the universe."

    After living this crazy and sometimes awful and mostly wonderful life of mine to around the (hopefully) 75% completed stage, I can say that it seems to me what he wrote is true, and useful as a message to the younger person in you, and me too!

    Hugs,
    Halle

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    1. thanks for this Halle. It is indeed a long and confusing road and we didn't know anything about what being trans was back then. We muddled our way through as best we could and now I can look back and see it all with 20/20 hindsight. I just wish there had been more education to guide us.

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