I wasn't an angry person before but certainly angrier than I am now and the internal battle which raged against my own nature was like slow and painful torture.
It is better to flow in the direction of the current with the understanding that life as a transgender person is going to be hard. Like all of us, I was given some talents but also one big challenge which I have found a way to deal with.
So if you are able, find a way to honor who you are and, if that path is to transition, then do so while trying your best to respect the commitments you made to others. I say this but then I have come to realize that my kids were going to love me no matter what I look like; whether I am a girl or a boy. As people used to swimming against the current, we are always going to be our own worst enemies.
Then, when you arrive at your own destination, that peace of mind is the best thing you will ever possess.