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You may have noticed that I am increasingly comfortable referring to myself as a female; something I never did in the past on this blog. I took a very long road to erase much of my social programming and have come to touch the core of who I am which is essentially female and always has been. But to admit that, I first I needed to take ownership of my transsexualism.

I was aware of these things very early but I knew well enough not to try and express it openly, for late 1960's Spain would have been among the worst places to do it; a machismo culture steeped in Roman Catholic mysticism.

Knowing who I am on the inside is extremely reassuring and it is the reason so much pressure has been lifted from my shoulders. No matter what I do now regarding some possible version of transition, that certainty will keep me balanced and happy for the rest of my days.

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  1. Joanna,. Religions always been a brake to emancipation. Before it was hard to get a Catholic pope not to be Italian. Have you ever seen a woman being a priest or leading JW meetings. None. You don't need religion to be a believer. All you need is yourself and to let your heart do the talking.

    I have to publically apologize for the misbehaviour of my ex colleague in a store in Anjou. He has been rude and inconsiderate and I thought constantly about you and how he made you feel that day. I am sorry for that and moreover I am sorry for his poor behaviour and wishing you happiness.

    Today I just saw passed at Place Montreal Trust . I wanted to tell you in person.

    Please pass by!

    Gréetings


    Alain

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    1. Thanks Alain that was the first and only time in many many years that this happened to me so it was a bit of a shock. That was then and this is now and 100 fold in a better place than I was. Clearly though you do not ask someone private questions about their state of transition upon just meeting them.
      Thanks again

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  2. Some people are very unhappy and are socially uneducated themselves because of their own struggles. It is the case of this gentleman . I am not trying to make up excuses for him but just a bit of explaining.

    I am happy that you're on the road of total happiness. I can never know what you have been through but I can relate to some feelings of lack of acceptance and therefore of self confidence. I also think it's wonderful that you write and hold this blog. You have been an inspiration to many people, so I read your blog for quite few months. Keep up your writing, your faith in people ànd in God.


    Thank you

    Alain

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    1. Thanks for reading Alain and for your wonderful comment 😀

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