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no going back

Every new plateau reached by a trans person represents a point of no return. I had read about it for years in the testimonials of transsexual women before being able to attest to it myself. You get to a point where you get closer to who you are and it feels wonderful. It will not be given up.

My partial life as a woman is exceeding my expectations and even if I have zero illusions about the disadvantage of being female in our world there is something very special about approaching your core gender identity.

It's not that you cannot live as a male but more the feeling that something wasn't quite right before and it is only when you taste the alternative that it is confirmed. As a woman I can feel myself relax into a sense of self that was denied me by virtue of birth plumbing; a reality which we now know very well does not conclusively decide gender identification.

There will be no going back for me and whatever little steps I take going forward, if any, will be measured against this wonderful feeling of peace that I feel.

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  1. Shybiker11 May 2019 at 05:57

    Absolutely true. A good metaphor is "the ratchet effect."

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