It has felt very liberating over the years to cleanse my system and begin to unify myself into one person. Before it had felt more distinctly like two personages with different behavioral traits. My cover had been honed to an art form to make sure the female inside was never discovered.
This is the root of my content these days with Joanna flexing her muscles like never before and speaking to everyone while feeling whole.
I now know that a life as a woman would be comfortable and even desirable but there are many details to work through and I won't skip any steps or cut any corners. If something about all this affects my children adversely I will adjust my course because they are more important than I am.
When dealing with something this dramatic I will take my time to decide.
What helps me is that the desire to enter into any more relationships has been mercifully scrubbed from my system which removes a lot of pressure and allows me to focus on what is right for me.