not caring

Before I was less concerned about my dual life being discovered I would tend to avoid my own immediate neighborhood but that has drastically changed.

I now leave my house intent on going to the local pharmacy or ice cream stand and simply walk there as Joanna. The difference is that I will dress more casually and wear little to no makeup.

Last night I made another trip to that little ice cream shop and the young lady who works there helped me choose a flavor to dip the small cone into. After finishing my ice cream I walked to the pharmacy and picked up some bathroom tissue and then made my way home. These are small things but it's part of my doing things locally as Joanna versus always opting to be somewhere else. It's become a normal that in the past would have felt slightly uncomfortable.

What a difference it is having everyone close to you know you're trans plus not caring what the rest of the world thinks.

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  1. "What a difference it is having everyone close to you know you're trans plus not caring what the rest of the world thinks."

    TRUTH!

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    1. I was chatting to a colleague the other day to whom I'm out. She was complaining about misogyny, and the roles "we" are forced into in our profession, balancing looking sexy, but not too much, and always being judged by our appearance or mannerisms in ways men are not. That she kept saying "we" was profound. For me at least. For this particular beautiful woman, it was just obvious to her. I had to thank her and give her a hug for seeing me so clearly with the knowledge that I am trans. I'm not sure she quite understood how special it was for me, but even that's kinda cool. Shows you what kind of person she is.

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    2. that is absolutely wonderful Caryn. It is heartwarming to be recognized as part of the club :):)

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