I have a simple trans related identity question for you to answer for yourself. If tomorrow you were suddenly completely transitioned by wave of a wand would be able to be happy and ready to adapt to that?My answer would be yes but yours may be a different one. I am already there in spirit except for any physical transformation but I would have answered differently in the past. Today I know I would readily accept that change and my life would go on as it is. The point is that I no longer feel it is impprtant that it ever happen and I am good and at peace with it.
As trans people we need to chew things over and believe me when I say I've been doing it since I can remember. There is no right or wrong answer here just your own.