If you came out as trans in mid life as I did, you probably had to develop a fair bit of self reliance early on. After all, not being able to share such an important facet of yourself required mental energy and a certain composure to make sure you weren't discovered. As a result, I have had people rely on me but never felt entirely comfortable relying completely on anyone else. That's not something which is laudable because it prevents you from really letting them get close for fear they will reject you should they ever see the full picture.That self reliance is what got me through difficult times however and it is what largely sustains me today. As I continue to increasingly let my guard down, it will be interesting to see what transpires.