The hesitant trans
I can personally attest to the fact that once you are at a plateau which suits you in your trans journey, there is no going back. It's like entering a hot bath where at first you are tentative but then acclimatize and you don't want to step out. I have reflected at length on what would happen if I regressed and sadly it would be an increase of stress and unhappiness. In spite of the fact that I have a unique formula that isn't perfect it calms the dysphoria to the greatest degree I have ever achieved. People who aren't self accepting might see this as succumbing but I see it as improving my quality of life.Having spent many years seeing being trans as an affliction (which the early years of this blog can attest to), I have perhaps a different perspective than some. My steps have been measured and tenuous and while I reject terms like bi-gender as applying to myself, I think the moniker of "hesitant trans" is much more apropos.