That it will suffice
I prefer existentialist philosophy to anything else because it feeds my appetite for brooding uncertainty which is always lined with hope for something bigger and more profound than what we can physically see. Hence Kierkegaard will do that for me more than the biography of a saint whose experience I can less relate to.I was always a doubter and needed explanations from my father as to why I needed to attend Mass. With age came more questioning rather than less as more information was presented to me to digest.
Now I try to marry logic with hope in equal measure expecting that it will suffice.