Who is Joanna?

I was born in 1962; a time in our history when we didn't quite have a proper language or understanding of this difference of ours and, as a result, did my best to escape its burden. Today, after much reading and research over a number of decades, I identify as a type IV on the Harry Benjamin SOS scale which is ostensibly a non-medically transitioning transsexual. This means that occasional crossdressing doesn't work for us but then a medical transition is not as mandatory as with types V and VI. Often it can feel like you are walking a tightrope.

I have been gender dysphoric as long as I can remember which we know is a proven medical condition varying in intensity between trans persons.

I am a Montreal based engineer, musician, artist and amateur philosopher who embraces all facets of my personality and very realistic about my situation in life. Unless I am wearing heels, I have always had my feet firmly planted on the ground. Humor aside, I know my being a trans person is permanent and by the age of 4, I was already getting into my mother's closet and began to slowly realize that there was something different about me.

How one deals with this reality later in life can be drastically different than if one is self accepting much earlier, and my highly personal firm decision to never medically transition is based on a long and thorough thought process which has taken me several years and has weighed all aspects of my existence. That being said, I will honor my identity as a trans person in the best possible way by being proud and unapologetic about who I am. It has been a long and sometimes painful journey to get here except now I continue my life with the resolute knowledge that I have chosen a path which works for me and honors my own brand of femininity. 

One thing I do know is that I am finally home and, no matter which road you choose for yourself, be sure it is truly right for you and be proud of it.

January 2022

about age 40

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